The day Rhemy was born, I was so overwhelmed at her arrival ( and rightfully so) that I didn’t realise that I was born again too. I was no longer just a woman, I was and am a mother. No more are my thoughts my own and no longer does my day consist of things to only benefit myself.
Everything on the news now frightens me more, because now I have Rhemy to worry about as well. I hate to see children going through any type of ordeal, because what if they happened to my child!
The temperature in our house is under surveillance 24/7 so that she is not too hot or too cold. I keep an eye on my watch like a hawk, not because I care what the time is, or have any where to be but because I like to know what is coming next in Rhemy’s routine.
It took me a while to notice these changes in myself, perhaps they hadn’t occurred straight away, although I am convinced they did.
I am now stronger and more confident in myself, however at the same time, I am more vulnerable too. I am interested in things I would have yawned at once before and love how much Rhemy makes me want to learn and take in.
Dynamics in my friendships have changed, and by that I do not mean the friendship has suffered in any way, just that it has altered. Luckily for me my close friends are happy for a pram to accompany us to lunch or coffee, or to come to my house when it is too hard to get out of the house. We have functions that a baby is fine to attend or ample notice is given if not so I can make other arrangements.
I am grateful that I have this is my life. I know many people feel isolated when they become parents because they have friends who do not have children or understand what it means to have them, so instead of being flexible and adapting slightly for their friend, they just stop inviting them to things.
I am me, a newer version, a better version. I have grown and changed in ways I know not only benefit me but also my cub!
I am a mother! I am her mother!
Now I ask you, to comment what changes you noticed in yourself. To like the post if you enjoyed it and share it if you would like others to read.
Until next time!